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It’s been almost 7 months since I lost my mom, was her birthday on the 18th. She was found unresponsive on the 19th in the early morning. Doctors said it was 6 hours roughly from time she was found laying helplessly on the floor. I never got to say goodbye, and throughout all this I’ve been trying to man up and be the support my family has needed in this hard time. I’ve covered everything funeral wise which was roughly 12k in costs. Was denied the CPP for death benefit which was 2500. And was going to be used to pay for her tombstone. And since being declined that, everything has been wiped from under me, and the stress has become so much to come up with $2800 to pay for her tombstone so she can finally Rest In Peace comfortably. I feel although I spent my savings on all of this that it’s still not enough I’ve been down and out after feeling that I couldn’t have done this. I have family writing me daily wondering when I’ll have that tombstone put in, I feel horrible as it is yet they love to make me feel even more down. We didn’t do the burial yet as it was winter time when she passed and they said it would be June we could do this. Which I still haven’t event paid for this tombstone, I’ve struggled everyday with this loss. She was a single mom, a best friend and most of all the person who taught me so much. Every night I find myself crying myself to sleep, and having no motivation and lack sleep as when I close my eyes I still picture her in the hospital bed during her final breaths that whole experience has left me feeling like a different person. To sit there and watch the woman who loved me first and cared for me and although her finances weren’t ever amazing that woman gave me the world and I feel so ashamed that I haven’t came up with the money to purchases this tombstone yet I feel like I’ve been a horrible son, and I feel like the family looks down on me for this still. The experience and watching what this brain aneurysm done and how it even rattled my whole life has had me wanting to give up, losing her has changed my life and question a lot of it. That girl was everything to me and honestly losing a parent has been one painful time and created a lot of doubt. I never wanted to ask or go to anyone for help and have this all covered for my beautiful mama but sadly I am in no financial place to purchase this tombstone that’s $2800, I’ve been off work since. I know 2800 is not much but to me it seems to be so much at this time if I had one wish in life it would be to pay for this tombstone so I can visit my mom and be with her it hurts me so much, I hope maybe the people of Reddit or who’s in a financial position may make that wish come true I honestly would be grateful more than I could express

I don’t know really how I could but it just breaks me to no I have not done this yet myself I know there’s good people out there and they won’t judge also know some may have words for me and I understand. So with this all being said

I have a Bitcoin wallet that I’ll post or msg and Incan give it to you in hopes some may find it in there hearts to help . Any amount is more then enough and so kind of you $2800 loonies is all this takes to pay for that tombstone So if you can and do or have questions I’d be more then willing to answer those

Thanks for reading this and taking that time out of your day

I miss you mom and love you so much

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I can also provide a email address that I can accept e-transfer.

Have a good day