IN YOUR ECONOMIC DREAMS

9:40AM EST - 9:55AM EST

4.21.2020

 THE MAIN LESSON I LEARNED IN MY TWENTIES WAS SOCIAL DISTANCING. BASICALLY. THEN, AS SOON AS I HIT MY THIRTIES, IN THE 2020'S, BOOM. SOCIAL DISTANCING IS NOW THE NEW NORM RIGHT? THIS IS WHAT THEY ARE SAYING. THEY HAVE BEEN SAYING MANY THINGS FOR DECADES NOW. SEVEN DECADES. IF NOT MORE. BRENDAN ASKED ME TODAY, VIA TEXT MESSAGE, WHAT I PLAN TO DO ABOUT THE MARKETING AND PROMOTION OF THIS ART PORTFOLIO? NOT THINKING ABOUT IT ALL REALLY. IN ALL ACTUALITY. IT WILL SERVE AS NOTHING MORE THAN A SERIOUS ROADBLOCK. AS A CREATIVE ARTIST, MY ONLY JOB IS TO MAKE THE FREE THROW. WHATEVER THE SHOT IS, MAKE IT. THE PROJECT IS THE SHOT. MAKE THE SHOT. ONLY THE SHOT MATTERS. THE SHOT, THE ONLY MATTERING FACTOR. AS AN ARTIST, I ONLY HAVE ONE JOB. MANY RESPONSIBILITIES I MUST HANDLED CONCERNING THE CRAFT. ALL RESPONSIBILITIES ACTUALLY. ANY OTHERS MUST BE DELEGATED TO THOSE ON THE PAYROLL. THE RIDDLE WASN'T HOW I WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING. i WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING BY HIRING MARKETERS. PUT THE SPECIALIST TEAM YOU NEED AROUND YOU ON THE PAYROLL. THIS SIMPLE. AT 25 YEARS OLD I WAS AT SUCH THOUGHT LEVELS. ONCE I WROTE "CFK" I WAS ABLE TO REALIZE I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO FUND THE PROJECTS MYSELF. HENCE THE FINANCIAL WORLD OF INVESTING I NOW FIND MYSELF EXPLORING. I AM SO GRATEFUL I AM STILL ALIVE. I THANK GOD FOR MY LIFE. I DON'T THINK ABOUT THE HOO RAH OF IT ALL. THE FLASHING LIGHTS. THE MEDIA. THE OSCARS. THE HOLLYWOOD WALK OF FAME. I FOUND A WAY TO SKIP THE LIGHTS AND THE MEDIA. STRAIGHT OSCAR STATUETTES AND THE STAR WALK POSITION. 

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7:18 AM EST - 7:54AM EST

THURSDAY APRIL 23RD, 2020

4.23.2020 -

4.24.2020 -

11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST

FRIDAY APRIL 24TH, 2020

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CHAPTER SEVEN: THE DEPRESS IS MY BEST FRIEND

 I STARTED A NEW FILM SCRIPT YESTERDAY MORNING. "FROM THE GET GO" "NAIJAH FOURLEAF CLOVER" IS THE PEN NAME. THE PEN NAME IS CREATED IN HONOR OF NAIJAH GROVER SR. R.I.P. TO NAIJAH GROVER SR. THIS IS THE BEST I CAN DO. TO HONOR MY FALLEN COMRADES WITH MY ART. GIVING THEIR NAME THE CREDIT. MY NAME NEED NOT BE ON THE BOOK PENNED BY MY OWN. I GAVE AWAY THE CREDIT. THE SPOTLIGHT. I DON'T WANT THE SPOTLIGHT. I WOULD PREFER TO SHADOW OPERATE. THE SHADOW GOVEY DOESN'T REAR IT'S UGLY FACE...SO WHY SHOULD I? THE GOAL IS TO WIN. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO WIN? CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. SEEK NO SPOTLIGHT. UNDERPLAY ALL ACCOMPLISHMENTS IN ANY SPOTLIGHT. GIVE ALL SPOTLIGHT AWAY. SHARE ALL SPOTLIGHT. TOTALLY IGNORE THE QUESTION YOU CAN'T ANSWER WITH TALK OF SOMEONE DEAR TO YOU. PUT OTHERS ON WITH YOUR SPOTLIGHT. OTHER THAN THAT, DENY EVERYTHING. A MAN LIKE YOU CAN'T GO ON THE BREAKFAST CLUB. IF I GO TO ANGELA YE SHE'S GOING TO LOVE ME. I WILL GO TO INTERVIEWS AS AN ACTOR WITH SCRIPT. I WILL BRING AN ACTOR IN A SUIT, TO PLAY MY LAWYER. EVERY QUESTION I CAN'T ANSWER, I'LL THROW A SIGN. THEN HE WILL WHISPER IN MY EAR. THEN I WILL REPEAT HIS WORDS. "COUNSEL HAS ADVISED I DON'T VERBALLY ENTER SUCH TERRITORY." I ENJOY MY LIFE. I JUST WANT TO KEEP IT SIMPLE. I WAS WILLING TO SACRIFICE ANY SUCCESS FROM THE CRAFT I GAVE MY LIFE TO. I GAVE MY LIFE TO LITERARY HISTORY. I GAVE UP MY PERSONAL LIFE TO ATTAIN INCLUSION. LITERARY HISTORY INCLUSION. I GAVE UP EVERYTHING. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE. I ONLY HAVE TEN THOUSAND FILES. MAYBE 5000 HOURS. YOU CAN'T CONTROL ANOTHER PERSON. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOURSELF. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR FOCUS. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR ATTENTION. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR AMBITION. I CAN CONTROL MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY. SPENDING YEARS PUBLISHING BOOKS, I WILL NEVER REGRET. I CAN NOT RISK LOSING MOMENTUM WHILE INSIDE A DOOMED RELATIONSHIP. I AM MORE CURIOUS OF OTHER IDEAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE. I AM A MAN OF IDEAS. I AM DRAWN TO IDEAS. I WANT TO HEAR SOME IDEAS. WE AS PEOPLE ARE IDEA CREATORS. SO IF YOU HAVE NO IDEAS, WHY HAVE A BRAIN? 4.24.2020 - 11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST THE DEPRESSION IS MY BEST FRIEND. IT IS ALL I HAVE. THE PAIN INSIDE, IS NOT REAL. IT'S REAL. BUT IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S INSIDE. THE INSIDE CREATES THE OUTSIDE. THE OUTSIDE AFFECTS THE INSIDE. THE INSIDE AFFECTS THE OUTSIDE. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I SAY? EXTERNAL EVENTS CAUSE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL EVENTS. EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS FOCUSED AND DIRECTED, CREATE REALITIES. THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS ATTACK ME. ONE PERSPECTIVE. PERSPECTIVE NUMBER TWO: THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS CHASE ME TO THE PATH OF PROLIFIC ART PORTFOLIOS. IT ALL STARTED WITH THE DESIRE FOR THE LEGENDARY ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FROM 20 YEARS ON TO NOW. AT 30, THE FIRST PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE CREATIVE PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE NEXT PORTFOLIO, PORTFOLIO NUMBER TWO, IS THE NEXT DESIRE. THE ECONOMIC PORTFOLIO. THE NEST EGG. THE FINANCING OF CHADXZAVIERFILMS. DAVIDXCRICHTON PUBLISHING. VANESSA B. STALLONE PRODUCTIONS. CLOVER MEDIA. ROCKMAN INC. THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE TO DO. THE DEPRESSION MADE IT SO EASY. THIS MAKES EVERYTHING SO EASY. I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, I CAN CREATE MY OWN REALITY. I PAY THE PRICE. EVERY DAY. EVERY SINGLE DAY. THE PAIN KEEPS ME HUMBLE. THE EGO'S AT BAY. THE EGO CAN ONLY THINK. EGO CAN NOT ACT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. THE DEPRESSIONS MAKE THE EGO LESS APPEALING TO HUMOR. NEVER HUMOR THE EGO. BE AS NICE TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU FUCKING CAN. YOUR LIFE IS ON THE LINE. I AM GLAD I CAN LOOK AT SUCH A THING IN SUCH A WAY. ON SUCH A DAY. IT IS THE FEELING OF FEELINGS YOU WOULDN'T ALWAYS WANT TO ADMIT TO. HOW CAN I BEAR YOU TO CONTINUE TO LOOK AT ME, WHEN I ADMITTED HOW I TRULY FEEL ON THE INSIDE? DID IT AFFECT HOW YOU SEE ME NOW? I'M NOT ASHAMED OF HOW I FEEL BC I FEEL IT. IT'S ALREADY HERE. I AM ASHAMED IT EVEN CAME AT ALL. I AM ASHAMED OF WHAT TRANSPIRED EMOTIONALLY. IN EXCHANGE, MY BUCKET LIST WAS MY LIFE. I LIVED MY BUCKET LIST. I HAVE NO ANGER TOWARDS THE COSMOS. THE UNIVERSE. I AM AN ADMIRAL IN THE UNIVERSAL SPACE NAVY. IT'S JUST A HARD PILL SOMETIMES. I'VE BEEN AT THIS SO LONG, IT IS STARTING TO FEEL LIKE A MOVIE ROLE ITSELF. I AM PLAYING ME. I AM CHASING THIS ONE GOAL. THIS ONE FILM. ALL ABOUT THIS ONE MAN CHASING THIS ONE DREAM, IS IN ONE FILM. WHAT GENRE? DRAMEDY. YOU FEEL SO NOT APPRECIATED IN YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. YOUR FAMILY LIFE. BEING 30. NO CREATED FAMILY OF YOUR OWN. YOU CAN LNLY SEEK APPRECIATION FROM YOUR EFFORTS IN YOUR CHOSEN INDUSTRY. I FEEL AS IF I CHOSE WRITING AND FILMMAKING. I CHOSE FILMMAKING. NOVELIST. FILM EDITING. DIRECTING. SCREEN WRITE. I WAS CHOSEN TO WRITE. I CHOSE THE FILM DIRECTION. PUNNING? PUNNING! I WAS THE BORN WRITER. MAYBE BORN FILMMAKER I DO NOT KNOW. I CHOSE FILMMAKING MYSELF. MAYBE IT WAS CHOSEN FOR ME TO CHOOSE IT. I APPRECIATE MY LIFE. THIS FILM ENTRY, SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL 2020 ENTRY, THE FIRST EVER FESTIVAL ENTRY. I HAVE MADE NO ACTS TO GET A DEAL. SPIRITUALLY I CAN ACCEPT NEVER SEEING RESULTS FROM THE INDUSTRY ITSELF. THE INDUSTRY CHOSEN FOR ME IS RUN BY THE DEVIL AND I AM A MAN OF GOD SO I HAD TO LET GO THE DESIRE FOR NOTICE. NO NOTICE. JUST ACTION. NO FLASHING LIGHTS. JUST TYPING A NEW BOOK FROM SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. SCRATCHING THE KITCHEN. CHICKEN SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. 

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1:29AM EST - 1:52AM

5.1.2020

FRIDAY MAY 1ST, 2020

CHAPTER EIGHT: MY BEST FRIEND INDEED

 ALL I THINK ABOUT IS WORKING ON MY CRAFT. THE ONLY THOUGHT PRE DOMINANT WITHIN IS WORKING ON THE CRAFT. ENDLESSLY BEATING ON THE CRAFT. WRITING AND PUBLISHING AS MANY NOVELS AS I CAN PER YEAR. RECORDING AS MANY AUDIO FILES IMPROMPTU AS I CAN. READING AS MANY PROFESSIONAL HOLLYWOOD CLASSIC SCRIPTS ON TAPE AS I CAN PER YEAR. READING SHAKESPEARE ON TAPE. EDITING VIDEOS FOR MY TWO YOUTUBE CHANNELS. INVESTING $10 IN FOREX AND TRADING IT TO $1000 PER WEEK. INVESTING $1000 PER WEEK OR MONTH IN STOCKS AND CRYPTO. INVESTING IN REAL ESTATE WITH THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING PROFITS. RESEARCHING FINANCE IS WHAT I THINK ABOUT AND DESIRE. WRITING NOVELS FROM THE RESEARCH ON FINANCE IS WHAT I WORK TOWARDS. WRITING HELPFUL MATERIAL AND PUBLISHING IT FOR POSTERITY AND LONGEVITY IS WHAT I DESIRE. WHAT I PURSUE? LITERARY HISTORY. A CINEMATIC LEGEND IN THE LITERATURE AND CINEMA INDUSTRY. I PUT ALL OF MY EFFORT IN MY SPARE TIME INTO THESE EFFORTS. THESE PROJECTS. THIS FILE CREATION PROCESS. THE DOCUMENTATION OF MY ADULT LIFE. MY PERSONAL TIME DIARIES. MY TIME CAPSULE LEFT TO THE WORLD TO WATCH ONE DAY. I USE THIS PROCESS TO SPEND MY TIME. TO INVEST ALL OF MY SPARE TIME INTO THE ACCELERATION OF THE MY SKILL SET. TO BEAT ON THE CRAFT. THE ART FORM. CINEMA AND LITERATURE. TWO CONNECTED INDUSTRIES. TWO CHALLENGES TO CONQUER. USING LITERATURE TO SOLIDIFY THE ENTRY ONE DAY INTO HOLLYWOOD. MY TEN YEAR OLD VIDEO FILE COLLECTION SHOWS MY DOCUMENTATION AND EDITING SKILLS. THE ABILITY TO CAPTURE INTERESTING FOOTAGE AND EDIT IT. THE PROCESS OF CREATING CONCEPTS FOR SKITS ND EPISODES OF NEW SERIES CREATED. THE FIVE YEAR DAVID X. CRICHTON LITERARY PORTFOLIO SHOWS THE ABILITY TO WRITE A PROFESSIONAL NOVEL AND FILM SCRIPT. THE FIVE YEAR AUDIO FILE AND AUDIO BOOK COLLECTION SHOWS THE IMPROMPTU SKILLS. FREESTYLING FILM SCRIPTS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. FREESTYLING NOVELS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. ON THE INSIDE, I AM JUST BROKEN INSIDE. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO KEEP THE DEPRESSION AT BAY BUT TO RELEASE ALL FRUSTRATION THRU THE PROCESS OF CONSTANT CREATION. NON STOP. TO PUNISH THE PAIN. TO PUNISH THE EGO. I SIT IN ONE SPOT AND FOCUS. I SHOW MY MIND WHO IS IN CHARGE. I HAVE TO STOP NOW TO SHOWER AND GET MY CLOTHES FROM THE DRYER DOWNSTAIRS. I HAVE TO WORK OVERTIME TOMORROW, CLOCKING IN EARLY. I HAVE TO WRAP THE CREATIVE SESSION UP EARLY TONIGHT. JUST THINKING ABOUT NOT CREATING FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT MAKES ME SAD. I HAVE TO FACE THE SADNESS WHEN I AM NOT CREATING. CREATING IS MY WAY OF FIGHTING BACK. I'LL BE BACK. THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING IT THIS FAR IN THE PUBLICATION. 

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5.2.2020

MAY 2ND, 2020

5.3. 2020

SUNDAY MAY 3RD, 2020

8:28AM EST - 9:12AM EST

TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020

5.5.2020

CINCO DE MAYO

1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST

9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST

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CHAPTER NINE: SKIDLY DO

I HAVE GIVEN MY CHILDHOOD INTEREST, TO MY ADULTHOOD. THIS DOCUMENTARY IS A TIMESTAMP OF MY ADULTHOOD. MY TWENTIES. TWO YEARS FROM 2011 TO 2013, THIS ENTRY WON'T HAVE THAT FOOTAGE. FROM 2013 FOOTAGE ON I AM USING. TODAY IS SUNDAY. THE FOREX MARKET OPENS TODAY. 6PM. UNTIL FRIDAY AT 5PM. 120 HOURS. THREE TRADES ON THE LINE. THE MONEY LINE. GREAT BRITISH POUND U.S. DOLLAR. BUY. 24990. IN ONE ACCOUNT. THE OTHER ACCOUNT. TWO TRADES. BUY. AUDNZD. FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. EXOTICS. BUY ALL WEEK FROM HERE. SELL AT 500 POINTS OVER THE NEXT ZERO POINT UP. GBPUSD SELL UNTIL THE CURRENT ZERO POINT. 25. SELL TO 26 ZERO POINT. SELL AT 26900 TO 26150. SELL AT 27 ZERO POINT. AUDNZD. MUCH SIMPLER. BUY ALL WEEK. SELL AT 500 OVER NEXT ZERO POINT. UNTIL CURRENT ZERO POINT. WEEK OVER. BASED ON NOTES. THE DEADLINE FOR THIS ENTRY IS JUNE 2020. THE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF TRADING CURRENCY. IN 2013, I PURCHASED FOR $88 A PIECE, THREE BTC. BITCOINS. I SOLD TOO EARLY. IMMEDIATELY. IN 2015, AFTER WRITING "CFK 1-6" I REALIZED I HAD TO FUND MY ART MYSELF. I DID NOT WANT TO RELY ON THE ART I CREATED FOR SUSTAINING A LIVING. I WANTED SUCH A FACTOR OUT OF THE EQUATION. I WOULD PREFER RATHER. INVESTING MONEY INTO THE ART INSTEAD. THE MONEY FROM THE BOOKS? INVEST IT. STOCKS. REAL ESTATE. BONDS. ASSETS. DIGITAL ASSETS. GIVE HALF OF THE PROFITS AWAY. TO PEOPLE WAY LESS MATERIALLY ABUNDANT. (TUESDAY 5.5.2020 CINCO DE MAYO 1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST) CHAPTER NINE. HALFWAY THRU THIS PUBLICATION. VOLUME THREE. MONEY PROBLEMS. HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE CHADFILMS ORIGIN STORY/ THE SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. 2020. AUDIO NARRATION. THIS IS NEARING THE END. THE BOOK CONTINUES. FOR ANOTHER TEN CHAPTERS MINUMUM. 15 CHAPTERS MAX. THE FESTIVAL ENTRY. THE DOCUMENTARY. CONTAINS THIRTY MINUTES OF FOOTAGE USING ON SCREEN AUDIO. THIS IS MY FIRST FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. EVER. I WANT TO SUBMIT THIS, FOR MY OWN GRATIFICATION. FOR ME TO BE AT PEACE KNOWING I FINALLY SUBMITTED A CREATION. I'VE BEEN IN THE CREATIVE DUNGEON FOR A DECADE. IT'S BEAUTIFUL. CLEVERLAND IS A REAL PLACE. YOU CAN ONLY GET THERE ONE WAY. THRU YOUR MIND. THERE'S A THRESHOLD OF CREATIVITY WITHIN YOU. WHEN YOU BREACH THIS LINE, YOU ACCESS CLEVERLAND. BREACH THE LINE OF COURSE. TEACH THE FINER COURSE. IN 2015 I BREACHED THE LINE. THE COMMERCIAL PUBLICATIONS HAVE BEEN POURING OUT SINCE. SYRACUSE HAD A FILM FESTIVAL WHILE I WAS LIVING THERE. I ENTERED THE FESTIVAL. I LOOK FORWARD TO WATCHING MY ENTRY INITIALLY. R.I.P. TO FLIGHT KOBE. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD I AM STILL ALIVE. I GAVE MY LIFE TO MY GOD GIVEN TALENTS. THE PURSUIT OF THE GIFTS. I'VE BEEN AN ARTIST STARVING FOR ONE DECADE. HALF A DECADE MORE AND I'M THE OVERNIGHT SUCCESS STORY. OVERNIGHT MY GRASS. 

(9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST)

 HERE IS WHERE THE WRITING ITINERARY IS GOING. THIS IS VOLUME THREE OF HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE VANESSA BUNNI STALLONE PEN NAME. THE VANESSA STALLONE PORTFOLIO. HER CATALOGUE. THE DEBUT PROJECT. THIS PROJECT. HER DEBUT. THE NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH ROCKMAN DEBUTS ARE NEXT. I WILL WRITE BACK AND FORTH FOR EACH CATALOGUE. FOR EACH PEN NAME. I WILL PUBLISH THE ANNUAL COLLECTIONS UNDER A COMBINED AND CREATED PEN NAME. CLOVER S. ROCKMAN. CLOVER STALLONE. THE 2020 COLLECTION ISN'T DAVID CRICHTON'S AT ALL. DAVID CRICHTON IS OFFICIALLY RETIRED. I GAVE AWAY DEBUTS FOR STALLONE TO CRICHTON. OR I LET CRICHTON KEEP THOSE IDEAS. FROM 2017 ON I WAS PREPARING TO RETIRE CRICHTON. THE TIME WAS JUST TAKING IT'S TIME PASSING. I FEEL AS IF THE DXC PORTFOLIO IS HALL OF FAME BOUND. I'M UTTERLY REASSURED ABOUT IT. EVERY PUBLICATION UP TO THIS ONE WAS DAVID CRICHTON. NOW VANESSA STALLONE HAS HER TURN. CLOVER ROCKMAN IS NEXT. NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH D. ROCKMAN ARE THE NEXT PEN NAMES. THE LITERARY DIRECTION. I DON'T LIKE DRAMA. I WRITE DRAMA. A GOTHIC LITERATURE PIECE IS NEXT. DAVID CRICHTON HAS A FILM SCRIPT "GOYLE". GOTHIC LITERATURE INSPIRED. AN IDEA GIVEN TO ME FROM A FRIEND TO SEE WHAT SPIN I PUT ON IT. I WAS RESEARCHING GOTHIC LITERATURE AROUND THE TIME. RECENTLY I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT AGAIN. I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING WITH DESCRIPTIVE DETAILS. NOT JUST FIRST PERSON DIARY ENTRY PERSPECTIVE ANYMORE. THAT'S DAVID CRICHTON. NOW, LET US GO FOR SECOND AND THIRD PERSON PERSPECTIVE. BEING DESCRIPTIVE USING ANALOGIES. THE LITERARY ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. THE POETIC ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. A LIST OF ADJECTIVES. I WILL CREATE MY OWN BOOK OF PROMPTS TO USE TO CREATE MY NEXT PUBLICATIONS. THE DAVID CRICHTON FORMULA, IS ABOUT TO BE PUBLISHED IN ITSELF. 

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CHAPTER TEN: EXTREMELY

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11:19PM EST - 12:02AM EST

TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020

5.5.2020 -

WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020

5.6.2020

10:37PM EST -

SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020

5.9.2020

"NEEDS MORE DRAGONS"

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: THE INTRODUCTION

HE WOKE UP IN THE CASTLE. DAY 30. THE SAME CASTLE. PECULIAR IN IT'S SMELL. FAMILIAR IN THE TASTE OF FOOD. THE BEDS. CHANGE. THE ROOMS CHANGE. THE WOOD SMELLED OF PAINT. FRESH PAINT. PAINTED RIGHT BEFORE HE WAS BROUGHT HERE. THE CASTLE ON THE ISLAND. HIT BY HURRICANES THRU THE NIGHT. TORNADOS DURING THE DAY. OUTSIDE OF THE CASTLES. THE FIELD. DON'T GO INTO THE FIELD. GHOSTS FLOAT ABOVE THE GROUND. THE BODIES OF THE GHOSTED, LITTERED INDISCRIMINATELY ALONG THE DUSTY LAWN. DRAGON BREATH. SCORCHED SALIVA. THE SMELL OF SUCH SEEPS THRU THE SPACED BARS. HE RARELY EVER GOES TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE BARS. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE OUTSIDE. A QUARTER OF THE TIME. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE INSIDE OF THE CASTLE. HALF OF THE TIME. THE ROOM IS ONLY EVER WARM, FROM THE DRAGON BREATH. BOGS. THE ENVIRONMENTS CHANGE INBETWEEN SLEEPING. HE HAS BEGAN TO GET USED TO THESE THINGS. HE WAS USED TO ISOLATION. NE'ER THIS MUCH ISOLATION. NEVERTHELESS, HE IS IN MORE ISOLATION THAN ANYONE OUTSIDE OF OUR BOUNDARIES. I WATCH HIM ALL DAY. I AM PAID, TO WATCH HIM, DAILY. I AM PAID, TO SEE HIM THRU TO THE DAY, FOR WHICH HE WAS BROUGHT HERE FOR.

 DAY ONE: THE DOOR WAS OPENED LOUDLY. WITH NO REMORSE. THE BANG ECHOED. BY THE TIME THE RINGING STOPPED. HE WAS THROWN ONTO THE FLOOR. I DON'T KNOW WHO DID IT. I ONLY SAW HIM START TO GET UP. HE WIGGLED. THE CHAIN WAS ATTACHED TO HIS FOOT. THE RIGHT ANKLE. WITH A CUSHION. THE CHAIN LENGTH LONG ENOUGH TO LEAVE THE ROOM. HE DID NOT FOLLOW THE GUARDS BACK OUT OF THE ROOM AFTER THEY HAD LEFT. 

(5.9.2020 10:37PM EST- 10:47PM EST)

 HE HIT THE GROUND SO HARD, HE TOOK A NAP. A THIRTY MINUTE NAP. HE AWOKE. TO A FIGURE. IN THE SHADOWS. OF THE DEEPEST CORNER, OF HIS ROOM. HIS ROOM WAS VAST. HE NOTICED. AS HE LOOKED AROUND. OBSERVING. WHAT HIS NEW HOME HAD TO OFFER. WITNESSING THE SPLENDORS. OF THE CASTLE. WHATEVER THEY WERE. SO FAR. THE FIGURE APPROACHED FROM THE SHADOWS. HE EXTENDED HIS ARM TO BRUTUS. "I'M DRACO." BRUTUS (OFF SCREEN) 

DRACO TOLD ME. THE TRUTH. HE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME. HE WILL ALWAYS FEAST UPON MY GREATEST FEARS. MY GREATEST INHIBITIONS. HE WOULD ALWAYS EXPLOIT THEM. TO HIS FULLEST ADVANTAGE. THE VAMPIRIC PSYCHIC OPERATIVE. DRACULA. THE PSYCHIC VAMPIRE. MORE LIKE CALIGULA. IN THE FEELING. HE ADMITTED. HE IS HERE TO STAY. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO RID MYSELF OF HIS PRESENCE. HE HAS BEEN AROUND ME ALREADY. FOR THE LAST TWELVE YEARS. HE HAS JUST BEEN UNCOVERED BY THE PYSCHE ITSELF, AFTER A 12 YEAR PERIOD OF SNUGGLING COMFORTABLY, INSIDE MY HEAD. HE AIMS TO DESTROY ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

BRUTUS WALKED TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE WINDOW SPACE FILLED WITH BARS. HE STARED OUT THERE. CONTEMPLATING. ON THE WORDS. HE NOTICED FOG FEVERISHLY FLEEING THE FORTRESS. TURNING AROUND TO BURNING. NO SMOKE. NO JOKE. THE DRACULA BLOKE. SLIPPED AWAY ALMOST SILENTLY. EGG YOLK. 

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9:21PM EST - 9:58PM EST

WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020

5.6.2020

10:50PM EST - 11:15PM EST

SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020

5.9.2020

SOUTHERN GOTH

SOUTHERN CLOTH

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THEY ALL SAT IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE PLUSH, LIVING ROOM. THE WAR. THE WAR HAD JUST ENDED. OUR LABOR FORCE IS GONE. OUR LABORERS. OUR LABORERS ARE GONE. "THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST DECADE. FOR ME. FOR US. MY FAMILY. REPAIRING DESTRUCTION WITHOUT OUR PROPERTY". THE FAMILY. ENTERS THE LIVING ROOM. LILY LIVIDLY LENDED HER LIKENESS. THE SHADES WERE SHAFTED. RETRACTED. WITH REAL TACT. THEY WERE DISTRACTING. WE ALL STOOD IN THE CENTER. OVER THE CARPET. PERSIAN.

(5.7.2020 4:58AM EST - 5:48AM EST)

 LILY MAY. MARY TONNIE. SUSIE DEAN. LULA MAE. ANNE MIG. CONNIE. ALL SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE SHADES DRAWN. DARKNESS LAYING DEEP WITHIN THE LAIR. THE LAYERS OF TRUTH. EMANATING. FROM THE MOUTH OF CAESAR. CEASAR. KAISER. RICE. "THE SOUTH LOST THE WAR." LULA MAE - "THE SOUTH LOST THE BATTLE." CEASAR - "THE SOUTH LOST THE ENTIRE WAR, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? THEY SURRENDERED." LULA MAE STANDS UP. SWISHING THE BEVERAGE AROUND WITHIN THE CUP. SMELLS THE DRINK. LOOKS UP AT CEASAR. SMILING. "THE ENTIRE WAR YOU SPEAK OF, IS A MERE BATTLE IN THE ONGOING WAR." CEASAR. "YOU MEAN THE WAR THAT WILL NEVER END?" LULA MAE. "EXACTLY. THE NEVER ENDING WAR." LILY MAY. "SO IF THE WAR ENDED AND OUR SIDE SURRENDERED, WE, CONTINUING THE WAR EFFORTS IN A NEW WAR, WOULD HAVE TO BE DOING SO IN A WAR OF SECRET MISSIONS?" ANNE MIG. LOOKS AT LILY MAY. LOOKS BACK TO LULA MAE AND CEASAR RICE. "SO WHAT IS THE NEXT MISSION?" (5.9.2020 10:51PM EST - 11:15PM EST) CONNIE STOOD UP. "THE ONLY THING THAT WILL SEE US THRU THIS, IS TO REALIZE. TO REALIZE ONE THING. ONE THING ONLY. WE DID NOT LOSE THE WAR. OUR ALLEGIANTS. OUR ALLIES. OUR SOUTHERN REBELS. DIED AS FIGHTERS. SOLDIERS. FIGHTING ON THE FRONTLINES. OF AMERICA. OUR PRECIOUS AMERICA. NOW IN OUR OWN PRECIOUS LAND, WE ARE THE REBELS. THIS I CAN NOT TAKE. THIS I WILL NOT STAND FOR. NOTHING OF THIS SORT WAS EVER MEANT TO HAPPEN. THE PREVIOUS GENERATION OF ALLIES DIED AS SOLDIERS. THE WAR WAS FOUGHT IN OPEN WAR FARE. ACTUAL WARFARE WAS NEFARIOUSLY DECLARED. THE NEXT BATTLES. WILL NOT BE FOUGHT IN OPEN FIELDS. THEY WILL BE FOUGHT IN OPEN COURT. IN OPEN SESSIONS OF CONGRESS. THE SENATE. THE GOVERNORSHIP. THE LEGAL SYSTEM. WE WILL CONTROL THE HANDCUFFS. WE CONTROL THE BADGES. WE WILL CONTROL THE WEAPONS. THE FIREARMS. THE TASERS. THE BILLY CLUBS. THE STARS ON THE BADGE WILL NOT CHANGE. ONLY THE WORDS WILL. TO 'PROTECT AND SERVE THE PLANTATION'. EXTRACT THE WORD 'PLANTATION'. 'THE SLAVE PATROL BADGE' FOR THE 'SHERIFF'S BADGE'. WE WILL WIN THE WAR. THERE WAS A NEW LAW PASSED. PREVENTING CITIZENS FROM SLAVERY. UNDER ONE CONDITION. WE SHALL EXPLOIT THIS CONDITION. WE WON'T SEE OUR PLAN MANIFEST IN FULL. BY THE END OF THE DAY. WE WILL GET OUR SLAVES BACK. WE WILL ENSLAVE THE ENTIRE NATION. THE SAME NIGGERLOVERS. WE WILL ENSLAVE THEIR ENTIRE FAMILY. IT WILL TAKE SOME TIME. JUST TO FIGURE OUT THE POLICY. IN FULL. THE MASTER POLICY. 'MASTER POLICY?' THE RE ENSLAVEMENT POLICY. WE WILL CREATE JAILS. PRISONS. THREATEN THE VOTE GETTERS TO GET THE CRIME RIDDEN NEGROES OUT OF OUR STREETS. WE WILL INCARCERATE THEM. THEY WILL ROT IN PRISON CELLS. ALL ACROSS AMERICA. WE WILL PURCHASE PRISONS. JAILS. WE SHALL OWN THEM ALL. ONE PRISON EVERY THOUSAND MILES. UNTIL WE CAN DO BETTER. WE WILL WIN THE SHERIFF'S RACE. THE ELECTIONS. WE WILL WIN THEM ALL. DEMOCRATS. REPUBLICANS. MANDATORY MINIMUM SENTENCES. FOR REPEAT OFFENDERS. OF CRIMES FOR MONEY. FILL THE POPULATION AREAS WITH CRIME. SO MUCH CRIME THE HOUSE VALUES PLUMMET. GET THEM ON THE STREETS. THEM PUT THEM IN THE PRISONS. OWN THE PRISONS. GET MORE INVESTORS TO BUILD MORE PRISONS. SHARE THE PROFITS TO INVESTORS. ALL OF THE LEGITIMATE NEGROES. WE NEED TO MAKE THE DOLLARS WORTHLESS. SOME HOW AND SOME WAY. WE WILL DETACH THE GOLD FROM THE DOLLAR. AND STEAL ALL OF THE GOLD. HIDE THE GOLD IN A BUILDING. HUNDREDS OF YEARS LATER. THEN BLOW UP THE BUILDING DECADES LATER. THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING. HILARIOUS HILARITY WAS NO SCARCITY. THE WINTER CHILL FILLS THE ROOM. WITH GLOOM AND DOOM. THE FOG OF THE VISION. SUCH A CLEAR VISION. BUT A CLEAR VISION HEADING FOR DISASTER. WHY BE SO VAMPIRIC? 

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8:19AM EST - 8:45AM EST

MAY 17TH, 2020

5.17.2020

SHORT STORY

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THE INTRODUCTION: BAD HABIT MONEY

 WHAT YOU MAY NOT REALIZE UNTIL AGE THIRTY? YOU SQUANDERED YOUR YOUNG ADULT INCOME, YOUR CHANCE FOR WEALTH CREATION, ON HABITS. ROUTINES. BAD HABITS. BAD ROUTINES. BEER, TOBACCO, MARIJUANA, BEING A PILL POPPING ANIMAL, ALL HAVE SIDE EFFECTS. ADVERSE EFFECTS. FINANCIAL SIDE EFFECTS. FINANCIALLY ADVERSE BEHAVIOR. EVERY DOLLAR SPENT ON A PACK OF RELLOS. EVERY SINGLE DOLLAR SPENT NOT ON RENT OR FOOD IS A WASTE. A TERRIBLE. THE WORST KIND OF WASTE. HORRIBLE TASTING WASTE. HORRIBLY TASTY. TERRIBLY HORRIBLE. YOU'RE GOING TO WASTE EVERY DOLLAR YOU EARN ON BULL SPIT AND FUN. THE DOLLAR IS A GAME. A SICK GAME. ACQUISITION AND INFLATION. PURSUING THE OPPORTUNITY TO ACQUIRE SOMETHING THAT IS IN FACT INFLATING, BY NATURE. BY DESIGN. NATURAL PHENOMENA MY GRASS. PHENOMENA BY DESIGN. FRED HAMPTON. YOU WERE NEVER FORGOTTEN. WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW AT TWENTY, EIGHT TEEN, NINE TEEN, YOUR YOUTHFUL PRIME, WAS THE TIME PERIOD TO ESTABLISH THE FOUNDATIONAL SEEDS OF GENERATIONAL WEALTH. AT TWENTY, RIGHT OVER YOUR HEAD. IT IS SO SAD TO ME, I DO NOT EVEN WANT TO KEEP WRITING ABOUT THIS. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LISTEN. IF YOU ARE OVER 25, YOU ARE AT THE PRE FORK IN THE ROAD. THE FORK IN THE ROAD IS AGE THIRTY. IF YOU CAN BEND THE FORK PROPERLY DIRECTED BY AGE 25, YOU ARE AHEAD BY SO MANY YEARS IN THE TIMELINE. IT IS ALWAYS CHESS OVER CHECKERS. I LOVE CHECKERS. WITH CHESS HOWEVER, HE WHO CONTROLS THE MIDDLE FOUR SQUARES, CONTROLS THE GAME. FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, YOU'RE MORE THAN LIKELY DESTINED TO MAKE DAM NEAR EVERY MISTAKE IN THE BOOK TWICE. THAT'S A BACK TO BACK REPEAT. THE NATIONAL CHAMPIONAHIP. THE NATIONAL DONKEY OF THE YEAR CHAMPIONSHIP. IT IS SIMPLE. REAL SIMPLE. REALLY SIMPLE. EXTREMELY SO. IF SOMEONE WANTS SOMETHING FROM LIFE, THEY WON'T SEEK ANYTHING ELSE. WHATEVER YOU SEEK, YOU SHALL FIND. I GET IT NOW. YOU WILL BE SHOWN BY LIFE, FROM EXPERIENCES, MEMORIES, MOMENTS, EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE IN FACT LOOKING FOR. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT INFORMATION IF OFFERED TO YOU, IF YOU'RE NOT LOOKING FOR THAT, YOU WON'T EVEN REGISTER THE OPTICALS. THE OPTICS. YOU WILL NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING AT. IT WILL BE AS IF YOU CAN'T EVEN READ THE LANGUAGE BUT YOU'LL SWEAR THE EXPERT. I GET IT NOW. THE ONLY PERSON YOU NEED TO HELP YOU SUCCEED, IS YOURSELF. IF YOU DESIRE SUCCESS FROM YOUR LIFE, YOU WON'T DESIRE A DAM THING ELSE. NOT ONE OTHER CIRCUMSTANCE. YOU DESERVE WHATEVER YOU PURSUE. IF YOU PURSUE NOTHING ELSE THEN DOUBLY SO YOU DESERVE IT. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PURSUE. MAK SURE IT IS REALLY IN TRUTH WHAT YOU WANT. WHEN YOU'RE READY FOR WHAT I CAN OFFER YOU IN THOUGHTS, THIS BOOK WILL APPEAR. IF YOU FIND THIS BOOK, YOU WILL CHERISH THE DAY. THIS BOOK IS AIMED TO BE THE MOST INFLUENTIAL STRATEGY GUIDE YOU EVER IMPLEMENTED ECONOMICALLY. EVERYONE STARTS AT THE BOTTOM ECONOMICALLY. IF YOU CAN REMAIN DEPENDENT FREE WITH NO ATTACHED BODIES TO YOU, YOU CAN RISE HIGHER AND FASTER OUT OF THE ECONOMIC PIT OF FINANCIALLY DECREPIT NESS.